Aging + Fat = Me

i'm a typical woman.

When i'm young, i wish to be 21 years old soon so that i can watch R(A) show.

but now~ after 21, i wish time slows and i dun age so fast.

the thought of aging scares me.

I'm not really worried abt turning 30, but maybe turning 35, 40, 50?

it sounds like a long way to go, but that the idea of it makes me shiver.

how will my skin be when i'm 35. will i grow even fatter?

i'm afraid of wrinkles, loose skin, or even pigmentation.

i noticed many ppl have (above 40), and i heard that having children may also cause skin pigmentation.

well, i really worry.

My sis and my sis-in-laws do not seems to have pigmentation after giving birth, but i can see it in my mum's face.

Is pigmentation a sign of aging?

at times i think of SK-II or even La Mier.

at times i think that acne skin means young but i dun mean i want that.

my clients thought i'm close to 30(age). Though my boss say it is because the way i thought.

issit the way i dress?

i scared that when i'm 35, i may dress like auntie.

But neither do i wanna dress like 18 years old.

i want to dress my age, but i tend to dress abit older.

i bought a dress that is for young ppl and when i wear it, i felt that i'm trying to act young. That's sound so despo.

I cannot bring myself to wear cute clothes coz i find it so disgracing.

It seems to be for ppl of 21 and below, or my nieces (in my humble opinion).

Sometime ago, i saw some auntie, maybe 50 yrs old, wearing mini-skirt. I almost wanted to faint.

When i grow old, i want to wear like susan, rebecca or lee tee.

They are the role models of dressing and i wish to be a role model of dressing when i'm old too.

Simple and classic.

Haiz~

Many ppl thought that revealing is my style.

No, that's not true.

You must know that we are in Singapore, a hot country.

I'll feel hot. Thus "they" will also feel hot.

Not that they wanna come and and see you. But just that the weather is hot and they will complain with water if i hide them from cooling areas.

But ppl who dun understand thought that i'm exposing myself.

But i do feel proud about it, yet i do not want to be a flasher.

i cannot stand ppl showing cleavage when they dun have.

Just like when you are fat, dun show your tummy. which i never do.

i started to wear clothes with long or 3/4 sleeve.

From picture (of me), i understand what mayu says abt arm.

i hate the picture taken in ELD during Christmas when i din wear jacket.
My arm look bigger than my face.

i always envy ppl with small face. *mine is huge*

and i always tell my mum she isn't fair coz sis face is small and my is probably double of hers. WHY?

*envy slim and tall ppl*

*envy generation z*

*envy young ppl*

i read some blog of ppl who are younger.

i kinda sad that i din really cheong when i'm young.

i seem to have miss some fun.

and now, if you ask me go cheong, i'll feel so out of the place, coz i'm like an auntie in the crowd. i rather go pubbing.

please take away my years and give me my youth back!