stress

i'm feeling pretty awful now...
it is a kind of holiday stress that i had never experience before...
super horrible..

coz holidays are suppose to be relaxing for me..
and i really dunno where the stress is from (T_T)
felt abit of meaningless in life [shit~ it is again the time of the year]
seems like this feeling will happen once every year or few year..
a feeling of meaningless in life..
like why am i doing this for? why do i live for?

a feeling that i wonder issit becoz i too free that's why i think in this way..
not too true.. coz i wasn't that free these few days..
was busy.. and i even went for a career talk that make me ponder abt work..
the career seems meaningful..
and i probably need such a career to make my life more worth
but at the moment, my life seems not worth.. i mean..
i'm not leading it well..
i could lead it better than it is now...

how to make myself better? i wonder.. i ponder... and yet i have no idea..
and i really dunno why i had such feelings... i was still pretty happy today
had a great lunch with er ge, saw kwet and sms liming,
went for the talk and met some nice ppl
got my ray magazine and had a coffee with kelly
chat with dear dear and now planning to watch hana yori dango..

everything is so great.. but i feel awful.. why?

last night i was worried abt one thing.. hana yori dango..
hana yori dango anime spoilt my 1st BGR
and i hope dorama hana yori dango 2 will not do the same..
coz i was shaken.. abit.. last night.. while watching..
haiz... i think i'm hopeless... cannot differentiate virtual and reality

back to dorama...

sun/mon/tue/wed

let me say them at once ba~

sunday:
was a day @ home.. dinner was @ swa garden. some weird weird shop @ macpherson road (daphne i think is near ur house) food was suppose to be great, but it wasn't.. dessert[yam with pumpkin + gingko] was the best despise being too sweet... the vegetable was even better than the goose.. and the steam fish was great except the pinch of MSG that they have put.. (T_T)

monday:
went back to school for 2 things

1) transcript to go MHA
with thanks to miyabi, the transcript was pretty fast. i got in it less than 5 mins on-the-spot. but i press the button to get a paper and after waiting for ages, they told me that the number does not exists.. ask me to repress... (T_T)

[in between] had lunch and dear dear pass me the couple-rings that he collected from the shop on sunday!! (o^_^o)

2) sun microsystem java certified programmer course [super-boring]
the course.. sux.. smart kim din even apply for it.. we saw huijun in the course who was sitting behind me.. she ask me what i have done since holiday till now and i say shopping lor.. so paiseh to tell her that i have been dating till that day .. hehe..
anyway, shufen, daphne and i left the room twice(i think) to go canteen during the break and took a long time back.. super boring.. on top of that, they ended abt 4pm instead of the 5:30pm mention, thus we accompanied daphne whose bf is coming to fetch her @ 5.45pm.. then we plan to go munchie monkey but i knew it was close and confirm it by checking email @ lab.. super-sian.. then dear dear became sick and we decide to leave 1st.. leaving sf with dap

tuesday:

a day of shopping!! but i din buy much leh.. only one top, one moisturizer and one waterproof eye-remover.. lunch was super event-full. we went to marina square in search of a lunch buffet but cannot find.. then went to suntec for ku-shin-bo but it was close for renovation, then went kenny roger and also close for renovation. finally decided to eat at siam kitchen for buffet but buffet is for dinner.. super sian that we went to eat @ some dunno-what-shop instead.. haiz..

wednesday:

rest day!! woo~~ so happy that i finally get a good rest today.. cook yummy lunch today.. i love broccoli, mushroom, carrot and got mama to buy all that so that i can fried vege.. then cook prawn and chicken.. lunch was superb.. hehe.. i was trying to learn how to "pluck" broccoli to remove the awful parts coz hime can cook but not good at preparation..

saturday @ town

super tired day~

"wild hog" is a super funny show.. watch it with dear dear today @ marina square.. he bought the tickets the day before and we got a couple seat.. nv sit at a couple seat before.. so cool.. dear dear say one day we can go for GV GOLD (i tink) the one that cost abt 30 per seat but super comfy (i heard).. he say just get the experience (everything must try -hime)

then had lunch and went down to orchard to look for some shopping [while typing this i realise a weird stain on my lappy screen >_< ]

[no extra details here]

dinner @ sakae make me super full.. and worse still had a regular black forest coffee @ coffee bean which makes me so full now that cannot sleep [so pestering miyabi & kairong at the same time]

mummy was super funny when she say she wanted to fetch me back via helicopter..

i super excited and nervous over coming friday.. i think nervous > excitement..

dear dear is going to work on tues and i guess i can start arranging my schedule.. super pack for next week.. so shuhan, if u see this msg, u may wanna get me out after mothers' day.. i'm not so busy for that week.. hehe

tml will be celebrating mothers' day for my family.. going to swa restaurant [dunno where]

*yawns* starts to feel sleepy after typing this post~ tired tired..

minna san~ oyasuminasai~

after exams

after exams is a super tired thing.. did i mention in my previous blog that labor day was spent watching deathnote with mama till i fall aslp?
nvm la.. it doesn't really matter coz i also lazy to go and check my previous post~ hehe

super tired now..yesterday and today was packed with schedules, apart from meeting dear dear, i met suchun last night.. super fun~ coz chat chat abt her bf stuff and mine and i think her bf super-funny [sorry chun chun] hehe..

then went to cini and play para-para for a while..

these few days will be doing the same thing.. thinking of cooking for dear dear but.. hmm..

no one in the family knows abt him
er ge, when u read these pls dun tell anyone else 1st k? (o^_^o)

looking forward to next week java course and also meeting up with liyan! new organiser!!

last day of exam fun~

finish my horrible gen bio @ abt 2:40pm and quickly rush out of the exam hall before the "last 15 mins cannot leave"

then called dear dear who came to school to accompany me and shufen to town..
poor dear dear, kena tease by shufen that he seems like got somethings nv report.. LOL.. then we had dinner(which is also my lunch and breakfast) @ ding tai feng.... dear dear "announce" to kim and dap who wasn't too shock, but all just ask when did it started.. hehe

shufen say he was too obvious (not that we are together, but that he like me) (o^_^o)

then we went ard walk walk before we head for ktv @ party world..
during the walk walk, i sign up for e-max card which will allow us to cheaper movie tickets.. but on top of that, i earn a pair of free tickets for "Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End". the rest think i too lihai liao.. coz the tickets are allow to be given out only when 2 ppl sign up together at the same time, but i was the only one who sign yet i got it free from the guy.. hehe~

and also a free movie voucher~~ can watch lots of movie liao.. coz dear dear also have quite alot of GV movie "vouchers"

as for the "Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End", i may consider giving it away if he start work coz the show is on a tuesday @ 6:45pm which is a time i guess he wun be able to come in time.. we shall see ba~~ [kkg, want the tickets? i'm putting you 1st on list for the free tickets. =) ]

then anyway, went party world, and shuhan and junkai also know the thing liao.. guess junkai is the only shock one.. haha.. ktv was super fun with them.. coz all siao siao and mad and junkai make us laugh till mad, then kim was crazy and daphne was possessed.... shufen also possessed.. haha.. shuhan is like a person in the audience seat, watching siao ppl..

then we had supper and coffee @ coffe club.. finally get to eat what i wanted!! yeah yeah~ that's was like abt almost 1am liao.. so we sit, chat, talk, think etc.. and crap.. then kim and sf become super tired liao.. but we drag on.. had some beer/wine etc and waited for 1st bus.. daphne left @ abt 5:20am, while the rest of us went to the bus-stop and wait for shuhan's 1st bus.. then go to the mrt and wait for 1st train.. i never knew that 1st train is so packed.. haha..

kim and sf's train is early, while mine wasn't.. so dear dear pei wo wait and send me back.. but he look so tired, then i insist he dun send me home.. so he directly take the train home instead.. haiz.. dear dear live in jurong west!! (T_T) so far~~

end of exams

just finish my exam yesterday~
yeah~~
super super tired~~

these few days will have to busy with some school stuff, next week have java course in school..
extra time? spent with dear dear till he start work.. i think he will start working pretty soon... hehe..

for those that i have told you, i have already said.. hehe.. the rest of you, got chance then tell you ba.. (o^_^o)

super tired now.. coz yesterday the whole clique stay till together till the 1st train to go home.. now i super lazy lazy..

going back to bed soon *yawn* sleepy