sianzz

haven seen baby for the weekend, which means he owe me my fish & co lunch~
not that i have cravings for it~ but on 16 Aug, he promise to bring me to fish & co the following weekend, and it has been delay twice.. and tml is sept liao..

sianzz.. this part makes me dun like the 7th month alot~

friday i fell down~ i think i freaking dumb man~ was holding food and my bag and then i fell.. the cab driver saw me and came down to see if i'm ok, but he din helped me.. T_T

blood started flowing non-stop and is damn disgusting looking now. i had no choice but gonna be buddies with pants for the next few days, till either the scar recovers, or till it is not so disgusting..

last night, i encounter the 1st insomnia of my life. really weird one. i watch drama and fall aslp.. then woke up, switch the lappy off to go slp. then couldn't sleep.. woke up, watch drama and fall aslp again, then woke up, switch the lappy off then slp, then couldn't sleep .......then...

it repeated a few times until 5am++..zzZZzz i should have just leave the lappy on and continue sleeping~~ dumb me~

i felt abit uncomfortable when ppl thinks that i'm not serious enough and that i'm just pure cranky. This makes me feel like an empty vessel just because i make noise. But it does not means that i'm dumb and idiot. Option between cry and laugh, why not choose laugh. Option between happiness and anger, why not happiness. Unless to the max of anger or sadness, i choose to smile and laugh. Coz i believe if u r unhappy, u may affect others around you. and i do not wish that they are unhappy, so i smile/laugh.

Since i'm not pretty, i'm not a bimbo.
Since i'm not beautiful, i'm not a vase.
So if i'm empty vessel, it makes me nothing.

i'm affected. but not hurt, upset or anything negative.