I HATE FRIENDSTER

each time i take a look at friendster, i feel like crying...

when i am in poly, yes, i have tons of friends, or tons of so-called-friends..

in the end.. what happen now?

when i am in sec sch, i also have tons of friends, or tons of so-called friends...

in the end?

i realise that i stop playing the game "friend-making".. tired and always end with no good end...

now with the stress i am in (thanks to nus), thinking of "friends" make me shed 2 drop of tears.. just 2...

coz i felt that i am exactly like the song in kaikan phrase - DUMMY

when i am in poly, everyone like to jasmine this jasmine that.. saying that i am so good.. but actually how good can i be? i am no good at all.. but people say that for the sake of wat? you should know better.. other than the some people that they really mean what they say, the rest are all bluffing me.. so much for friends...

eventually, i realised that, i have only made a few friends in poly, and actually couple more in secondary..

I ended up with generally this friends only.. which make me a very sad person afterall

1. zhiwei - actually he is not my friend, my god-kor, taking care of my academic since sec sch till poly and even wanna take care of my academic in uni.. very very nice kor, who nv fail to remember my birthday, my mum can remember his name better than liyan's.. hee

2. liyan - my female best friend, who always listen to every single crap, happy and sad thing. Never fail to do weird things with me as well as caring for me at all times. She even willing to take me in her hostel, despite that PGP is such a freaking small place.. from close to far to close to far and back to close again now in NUS.. someone who i definitely can foresee me in good relationship 10 years down the road...

3. patrick - my male best friend, a typical SNAG, who always very nice to everyone regardless of guy or ger.. always lend me his sleeve when i cry and get a wet sleeve in return.. though he forget my 20th birthday, but he insist he nv forget, just that he is in jungle, cannot sms or call me, so i believe him and forgive him.. LOL..

4. kkg - will discuss abt individual later. as a whole, company me to this and that regardless of distance, help me immediately when i get into a panic situation, including offering to company me to study when i get too stressed up over studies matter.. my best ktv company, my private tester for cooking, my birthday present planner, my shopping-mates, my maple-mates.. erm.. what else have we done(or not done) before?
4a. adeline - the "kk" in the kkg, my personal NUS helpdesk. my NUS timetable planner, my module "bidder" and almost my tutorial "balloter". i used to be so scared of her when i 1st know her and somehow i dunno how we have come to the helpdesk-relationship. My No.1 SOS(Strawberry on Shortcake?) in NUS.. *almost my kaleshi during one hair-maintenance session, and my musume during the zaizen-era.. LOL*
4b. amelia - the "g" in kkg, my ex-son-in-law.. now still in good relation, despite the official "break-up" with suchun.. LOL.. always sitting in one corner during ktv time, waiting for adeline and i to "delicate" songs for her to sing... Next time you pay more ba!!! got to be close since hana yori dango(i know is 'go' not 'jo' liao), and always tell me stories of johnny's jimusho, follow by skipping OI lesson together to go kino, tower records, hmv etc..

5. suchun - my dear daughter.. always call me ma, but forget to wish me happy mother day.. so unfilial.. LOL.. but now she already attached liao, so going to be from bad to worse, as they always say that "got wings can fly liao"... hai~ my very "caring" daughter and i know that next time if i got no money she can support me coz she is going to be an accountant and accountant are usually rich.. LOL

6. rachmat - a really good ah bang that always care for me in poly.. though at times like to say bad things about makoto (which till now i still refused to forgive him), he is still a very very nice ah bang.. regardless of him going back to indo, or further his studies in ny or staying in sg, i sincerely hope that he can still be my ah bang besia in poly..

7. hisham - ah bang no 2. Both my ah bang in poly nv fail to remember my birthday, which is very touching coz generally most of my poly friends forgot.. LOL.. though i remember theirs.. in poly, hisham is one of my best study-pals, especially that he is so-smart.. after poly, he will msg me in msn often to ask about how am i, and ask me not to be too stress in uni, ask me relax and so and so fore.. once day he might be in singapore idol.. he will never lose to taufik... i know..

8. sasi - my "lousy" yet good advicer in erm... secret.. LOL.. seriously speaking, despite that i always make fun of him, he is the only one in D1 who i eventually keep in close contact.. very nice friend who sometimes contradict himself and i also get confuse.. though what he wish for did not happen, but if something similiar happen, he will definitely be in the top 10 person to know it..

9. stephanie - a ger who come out of no-where.. not really no-where, but we weren't in any of the same school.. and yet we still manage to be friends, and quite good friends.. suprisingly(but like what mr koh say, pleasantly surprise). Really gonna say thumbs up for her!! i mean for being my dear friend.. lol..

10. peiyun - she must be real angry if she see this list and she appear so low.. sorry my dear ger.. but then.. who ask you always missing in action... =p dun wanna say anything abt her, coz too much to say liao.. and i scared i will relate all the way to secondary school where i pair yan hao and her up..

11. yan hao chang pin - though i know that tortoise aka turtle 1st, but like what chang pin say.. he happily forget my birthday.. so chang pin, you are higher on my list.. chang pin, my chatting partner in the mid of wee hours, and including his mum, at that time, who also like to chat with me.. LOL.. such things no longer happen since we started having hp.. my movie partner when he is out of camp, else will be patrick liao.. but got difference, when with chang pin, he choose the movie, when with patrick, I choose the movie.. LOL.. appreciate this fact ba, chang pin~~

12. yan hao delphine - my buddy in sec 3, sec 4, always sick during some time in a month, and always make us worry, even when in poly.. now finally grad, working, and probably getting married soon.. LOL.. the only sad thing about her is that till now we still never see her bf lor.. we even see suchun liao, and i bet got chance surely can see steph de.. why not yours!!! i badly missed her and wish to see her soon, sorry for today, but really overloaded..

13. yan hao doreen - a very sweet ger who is talented in a different aspect from me, a very pretty ger, but yet seem not to know that she is pretty.. haiz.. she is one that is definitely worth to be in this list.. doreen, 13 is my lucky number.. i delicate to you!!

14. yan hao - i almost want to put you as the last person!! he is the monitor aka computer screen during sec 2 (is he? i forgot), my project partner, the rich-guy-who-act-poor-but-always-wearing-freaking-expensive-clothes-that-look-like-from-pasai-malam. my listener in sec 3, especially during the sec 3 chalet.. maybe he forgotten, but i still remember what happen then.. =X

15. nigel - i just receive a sms from him.. sweet at times, but sometime feel like bashing him up.. once always make fun of me.. till i slap him so hard.. LOL.. of coz not on face la.. who dare to slap on a face that it like toufu... all the girls like to ask him why is his face so nice, free of pimples, blackheads etc, and he will always reply, "i used shokobuzu"...

16. xiong - it is so weird for him to be in this list, but! he is probably he only one who remember to ask me to go to hazel cruize gig and the only one who remember that i am once hazel cruize's manager... everyone else had probably forgotten..

So if excluding xiong, i only have 16 tomotachi in my life... imagine that last year, when sasi and i discuss about my 21st birthday guest list, i had a list of 200 over people, excluding my family and relatives... so much for friends... afterall, those who always say jasmine this jasmine that, has all completely forgotten about me and proceed to a next stage of their life.. yet, i wish them the best.. since i still have 15 of you..

P.S.: i saw LAU WEI CHONG in NUS!!!